a digression

This is totally not related to eating disorders at all, but...

Don't you hate when there are songs that you once loved with another person and now it hurts to here them.

Here's my list:

Where Did My Baby Go - John Legend
Beauty - Dru Hill
Goodbye to My Lover - James Blunt
Lost Without You - Robin Thicke
Unbreakable - Alicia Keys
If I Was Your Woman - Alicia Keys
Stingy - Ginuwine

Oh there are many many many more...but I'll stop here.

It's like the song is tainted now by this other person and there's nothing you can do about it. Because I still love these songs -- but I'm completely caught off guard when I hear them (even though they're all on my itunes) and it drives me crazy because I want to call up the person and just talk. And I can't do that.

These are all love songs, duh, (as most songs are) but I don't think of past lovers. I think of BEST. Someone who introduced me to James Blunt and Robin Thicke and got me to love the song, Stingy. And when I hear Beauty, I can still hear her belting it out at the top of her lungs. There's so many memories we have around music...more than anything else I suppose.

I wrote her from the residential program. I hate ending relationships. I hate when something is over.